San Vicente
Oh, I am so glad that you got all my cards because I sent a bunch of them and I think I am going to send a package home of stuff that I don’t really use.
Well, this week was a week mas o menos. I realized a lot of the stupid little habits that I have already fallen into. I am trying to correct it so that I can keep growing spiritually. Like one thing that I really haven’t been doing well is studying the language. Because it says in chapter 7 that you should never stop learning the language even after the people start to understand you. Which I have slacked a little bit I think. But I know that the Lord doesn’t only want me to speak this language here. He has other things after the mission that he wants we to do with this language. So I kind of kicked myself in the butt and this week will be different. If you can’t tell I am pretty hard on myself, which can be good and bad. I am focusing a lot on love. I really want to come to have the love that Christ had for the people. Because if I don’t love the people then I wont be willing the sacrifice for them. And also that I should obey because I love my Heavenly Father. I think I have obeyed the rules in the past because I was scared of the consequences, which should be one reason, but the main reason that we should keep the commandments and rules is because we love our Heavenly Father. John 14;26. Ya, I have done a lot of soul searching this week. I don’t really know why but I always do that. I don’t know why but for some reason I don’t feel the same emotion that I did at the first of my mission. I don’t have the same desire. I really am praying hard because I want to have that desire and that love for the people but honestly I don’t feel much of it and I am not sure why. Maybe it’s a test that my Heavenly Father has for me or something, but pray for me. I can’t work like this if I don’t have the desire. I don’t this it is because I don’t have the desire but I don’t have the desire that I would like to have--that I would be willing to do absolutely anything so that others come to know of this gospel. I loved reading Austin’s goal that he made and I have made some goals the same. I am going to give it my all so that I can have the deep desire that I want so that I am not forcing myself to do certain things but am willing because I have the desire to do it. Dad, I am doing what it says in Alma 17. I just read that chapter. I am praying and fasting for that desire that I want. I want to ask all of you if you could maybe fast one day for me and for this purpose. I know that fasting brings many blessing and especially when we do it as a family. I am going to fast for the same thing too. Thank you so much.
Ya, I got the valentines box. Send us maybe a couple of sweet ties. haha That is my life. haha The cardboard cutout would be pretty sweet haha. You have to send me a picture if you do it.
What? Hille will be right here with me. haha That is awesome. That is so sweet, we will basically all be speaking Spanish. haha That will be sweet.
Well, I have to go make a new email for my LDS mail. They want all of us to make a new one so I will tell you the email and the password so that you can check it. But I think I’ll send a little email after wards
I love you so much and am thankful for your support.
Elder Mahas
